Good morning, lovely readers! It’s not a normal Monday at The Gilmore Guide to Books because I don’t have a review or a post about what I’m reading or anything to do with books at all. Instead, I’m here to tell you I’m taking a break for a bit. One week, possibly two. I’ve never done this before (even when I went to Italy for 10 days) so it’s scary, but necessary.
You all know we’re moving to Michigan, but what I haven’t shared as much is that the process has been going on since January and it’s been just the kind of situation that is difficult for me—lots of variables, changes, decisions made and unmade, shifting goal lines. When I was younger, this would not have been a problem, but, to be blunt, my brain ain’t what it used to be. My multiple sclerosis means I have finite mental energy and stress makes it even worse.
Admitting this is hard. It makes me feel weak and vulnerable. Reading and writing about books is my identity, my job, even though I don’t get paid. I work really hard at it, but right now I find I can’t come up with the words I need to write the reviews I want. I know that at the end of this I’ll have a new adventure in a new home and it will all be good, but I need to step back. I’m worn out.
I am so appreciative for all of your support and, at the same time, terrified that without content you’ll float away to other blogs. I promise this is just a brief break so I can reset my brain. I’ll be back in time to share the big books of fall I’m ready to read!
The words are in there, I just need the joy back to get them out.